“History never really says goodbye. History says, ‘See you later.'” (Eduardo Galeano)

[NOTE: Though I wrote this post more than five years ago, it could not be more timely, or urgent, than now.  I’m on the road this month, but I’ll be back with a brand new post in March. Meanwhile, keep hollering and harbor hope. We still have a democracy, however flawed–and we must keep it.]

My husband and I are having dinner at a local farm-sourced, regional-brewers kind of place when I notice the TV set over the bar is playing Whatever Happened to Baby Jane, that 1962 cult classic, mental/emotional slugfest between a manipulative Joan Crawford and a deranged Bette Davis. Both of them on the far side of their ingénue years.

When the server—a young woman in her mid-20s—comes to take our order, I ask if she knows the film. She scrutinizes the action on the TV screen and shakes her head. Never heard of it. I give it a strong recommendation. It may be camp, but it’s first-rate camp and it was nominated for five Academy Awards.

This exchange got me thinking about the increasing transcience of culture and knowledge. How what’s happening in the ever-changing nanosecond fills and floods our attention to the exclusion of everything that came before.

The Seduction of Now

It’s very seductive to think of the past as something finished. Over. That it has no connection or relevance to who we are now or where we’re headed. That we can re-invent ourselves at will, without a backward glance, and no price to pay.

Our high-tech world, with its rapid flow of new, disposable “product” and seemingly endless streams of “content” not only encourages this attitude, but practically demands it. When something “brand new” happens every 15 minutes, our attention is sorely taxed just scrambling to keep up. Who has time to reflect? To make connections?

Though each of us has a personal life that begins with our birth and ends with our death, we’re also part of a much larger world with a long and complicated past that affects our little blip on the timeline.

Okay, no one is going to argue that Whatever Happened to Baby Jane is a force to deepen ones understanding of the world. But an existence composed solely of what’s-happening-now leaves us with no compass to steer by, no yardstick for comparison on serious, larger-than-our-lifetime issues—say, global warming or the worldwide resurgence of nationalist movements. Without an understanding of what “went before,” we might not even realize it is a resurgence. That the current global trend toward nationalism has roots in the European fascist movements of the 1930s and the Jim Crow laws of the American South—the latter going back to the Civil War and that defender of slavery, John C. Calhoun. That nationalism is not without links to the European conquerors of Columbus’s “new world.” All of it a shorthand for the belief that some people are created more equal than others. That some people don’t even have the right to exist.

Without a sense of how today’s headlines fit in along the timeline of human history, we’re left vulnerable to all who would prey on that ignorance. And they are out there.

In a State of Disconnect: Clueless about History

A quick survey of polls targeting common misconceptions (and just plain ignorance) about history makes for fascinating—if frightening—reading.

A 2006 poll by the now defunct McCormick Tribune Freedom Museum found that one in five Americans could name all five Simpson cartoon family members, but only one in a thousand people could identify all five First Amendment freedoms.

A 2012 ACTA survey revealed that fewer than 20% of college graduates could correctly identify the effect of the Emancipation Proclamation.

A 2010 survey, cited by The Atlantic, reported more Americans knew that Michael Jackson composed “Beat It” than knew that the Bill of Rights is a body of amendments to the Constitution. And one in three did not know that the Bill of Rights guarantees the right to a trial by jury.

Fifty percent of Americans surveyed also suffer severe timeline confusion. They identified the American Revolution as happening after either the Civil War or the War of 1812. And more than a third had no clue at all in which century the American Revolution occurred. One can only hope continued sell-out performances of Hamilton will provide some hints.

In light of the video that went viral this summer—a man harassing a woman for wearing a shirt with the flag of Puerto Rico (“You should not be wearing that in the United States of America!” he shouted repeatedly.)—it’s worth noting that a 2017 poll revealed almost half of Americans don’t know that the people of Puerto Rico are United States citizens.

Perhaps the most shocking—and saddening—statistic I came across was cited on NPR’s All Things Considered: Forty percent of Americans cannot identify what Auschwitz was.

In fact, fewer than half of Americans know that Hitler did not take control of Germany by force, but was democratically elected. We’ll return to this later.

Why Does This Matter? Why Should We Care?

Not knowing what came before, as I said, renders us prey to spin doctors, Russian hackers, unscrupulous politicians, and hucksters of every stripe.

It leaves us vulnerable to the lies of others, told for their own nefarious purposes. 

“I watched when the World Trade Center came tumbling down,” said then-presidential candidate Trump at a 2015 Birmingham rally. “And I watched in Jersey City, New Jersey, where thousands and thousands of [Muslims] were cheering as that building was coming down. Thousands of people were cheering.”

Trump stirred up a lot of anti-immigrant feeling with these words, sowing the seeds of support for his notorious Muslim Ban, but politifact.com gave him a “Pants on Fire” rating for that speech. That’s code for one big fat whopper.

PolitiFact cites a September 17, 2001 Associated Press report that debunked “rumors of rooftop celebrations of the attack by Muslims” in Jersey City. And wildfire rumors of Muslim-Americans cheering the fall of the World Trade Center in Paterson, N.J., turned out to be a nasty lie spawned by chain e-mails and fanned by shock jock Howard Stern.

The historical truth? Muslim residents of Paterson mounted a banner in that city saying “The Muslim Community Does Not Support Terrorism.”

We fall for solutions that have failed us before.

Trump sold his tax cuts for the rich by promising American workers that with more money in their boss’s pocket, they would benefit from increased wages and bonuses. It was gonna be “beeeeautiful.”

If there’s one thing we should be wise to by this point, it’s the bald-faced lie of trickle-down economics—that when you let the rich keep all their money, out of gratitude they will pass pots of it along to the peons who made them rich in the first place. William Jennings Bryan, a three-time Democratic presidential candidate, exposed the nonsense of trickle-down more than a hundred years ago in his Cross of Gold speech:

There are two ideas of government. There are those who believe that if you just legislate to make the well-to-do prosperous, that their prosperity will leak through to those below. The Democratic idea has been that if you legislate to make the masses prosperous their prosperity will find its way up and through every class that rests upon it.

The term “trickle-down economics” was coined by American humorist and commentator Will Rogers to ridicule President Hoover’s dismal stimulus efforts to cure a Great Depression many economists feel he played a large hand in creating. Hoover, a cheerleader for “rugged individualism,” believed that only the voluntary action of “socially responsible capitalist leaders” (know any?), not government intervention, would restore economic order.

Trickle-down economics failed in the close of the 19^th century. It failed in the Great Depression. It failed in the massive tax cuts to the rich known as “Reaganomics” that started an almost 30-year slide into the financial crash of 2008. And it is failing under Trump. A 2018 analysis of Fortune 500 companies reveals that fewer than five percent of workers will get a one-time bonus or wage increase from the Trump tax cuts. If they still have a job. AT&T and General Motors both cut 1,500 jobs. Kimberly-Clark dumped 5,000 workers. It seems that most companies poured virtually all of their tax-break money into stock buybacks, making the richest folks even richer.

Trickle-down economics does one thing and one thing only: It robs from the poor and middle classes, and gives to the rich.

Blinds us from seeing how attacks on others are attacks on all of us.

Recently, I read a piece (sorry, I didn’t copy the link) where psychologists discussed how people tend to mentally catalog only those things they perceive as affecting them directly. For example, if you’re not a union member—a teacher, a nurse, an auto worker—you might think that current efforts to cripple or destroy unions have little to do with you. “Right to work” laws, attacks on overtime pay. But you’d be wrong.

History shows that the advantages labor unions have fought for and won (starting with the right to unionize) have generally benefited all American workers.

Before there were unions, many people worked six, even seven days a week for an average workweek of 61 hours. It was the unions, waging massive (and sometimes bloody) strikes in the late 19^th/early 20^th centuries that brought us the 8-hour day and the weekend. A half-century of struggle culminated in the passage of the Fair Labor Standards Act of 1938. 

When unions are strong, the middle class tends to flourish. When they are weakened, as is happening now, income inequality increases for all workers and the purchasing power of the middle and poor classes shrinks. A lot. Benefits disappear, too.

Speaking of benefits, it was the rise of unions in the 1930s and 1940s that we have to thank for employer-sponsored health insurance. When unions used their numerical clout to negotiate health care for their members, many other employers scrambled to stay competitive by offering the same.  By 1950, a majority of employers offered some type of health insurance to their workers. With the current two-pronged effort of the GOP to weaken unions and sabotage the ACA, the future of employer-sponsored healthcare is something to keep on your radar.

In its first national convention (1881), the American Federation of Labor started the ball rolling to end child labor. State after state responded to this call until the 1938 Fair Labor Standards Act abolished child labor nationwide.

Allows those in power to cheat us of our rights.

If you don’t know the Bill of Rights guarantees you a trial by jury for criminal cases and serious civil cases—and inhibits the court from overturning a jury’s finding—you might be bulldozed into waiving your right to a jury trial in exchange for one heard (and ruled on) solely by a judge. This is increasingly a power tactic of corporations who feel juries tend to be sympathetic to individuals claiming damage or loss rather than to the big companies alleged to have screwed them.

It’s easy to take from people what they don’t know is theirs. Remember those 999 people out of 1,000 who could not name the five freedoms guaranteed in the First Amendment? They are at risk for believing the current propaganda that a press who criticizes the president is un-American. They may fear to speak out because some politician with an agenda says protesting government actions is “illegal.”

Well, here they are, the five freedoms guaranteed to all Americans under the First Amendment to the Constitution (at the very top of the Bill of Rights):

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press, or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.

We are allowed to holler with all our might against those who would violate or destroy our democracy. And we should.

We fail to recognize the signposts of eminent danger when they’re right before us.

Recently, a guest on MSNBC’s All In with Chris Hayes said of the current fight against widespread attacks on voting rights, “The Civil Rights Movement continues. It is eternal.”

Ditto the fight against fascism. Fascism did not end with the surrender of the Nazis any more than white supremacy died with Abraham Lincoln’s signature on the Emancipation Proclamation or the passage of the 13^th Amendment.  

I mentioned up-top a poll that found fewer than half of Americans know that Hitler did not take control of Germany by force, but was democratically elected. As Emory University history professor, Deborah Lipstadt, explains, “The Nazis didn’t come into office on January 30, 1933, and decide on a genocide the next day. They slowly broke down a democracy. They destroyed it.”

She goes on to cite the “steady drumbeat of attacks” that began under Hitler. “First on the press, then on the courts, then on institutions, [the] slow takeover of institutions.”

Sound familiar?

Connecting the Dots  

To have a solid grasp of what came before is to have a richer understanding of what we’re seeing now. A guide to sift truth from lies. A way to answer the always-pertinent question: From whose viewpoint is this coming and what do they stand to gain by pushing this particular agenda? Instead of bouncing from tweet to tweet, history gives us a telescopic lens to pinpoint the connections. And it cannot be said enough: Everything is connected.

The films and books, the music and paintings and theatre of the past have messages for us, too. Not perhaps the kitschy romp of Whatever Happened to Baby Jane?, but there is much worth our attention in the dusty archives of film, the overflowing shelves of the library, in Shakespeare’s plays and John Donne’s poetry.

One book that Americans are rediscovering is a little dystopian novel, 1984.

Written 68 years ago by English author George Orwell, it’s been flying off the shelves, as they say, topping the best-seller list at Amazon in January 2017—after Kellyanne Conway coined the term “alternative facts” to justify Trump’s complete fabrication about the size of his inaugural crowd.

That tells you what happened. It doesn’t tell you why it matters. To do that, I will close with a paragraph from an article written by Adam Gopnik for The New Yorker in 2017, “Orwell’s 1984 and Trump’s America”:

“And so, rereading Orwell, one is reminded of what Orwell got right about this kind of brute authoritarianism—and that was essentially that it rests on lies told so often, and so repeatedly, that fighting the lie becomes not simply more dangerous but more exhausting than repeating it. Orwell saw, to his credit, that the act of falsifying reality is only secondarily a way of changing perceptions. It is, above all, a way of asserting power.”

To know what came before us is a great gift–enriching, fascinating. It is also a warning.

Ah, January. The month of resolutions. Exercise more. Eat healthier. Get more sleep. Get organized (How? When? Add 10 hours to every day and the problem will solve itself). Nearly 40% of Americans make some kind of New Year’s resolution. Most say they are “very or somewhat likely” to keep those vows. Someone should do a follow-up in February.

Regular readers of this blog might recall that I, too, succumbed to resolution mania last January.  Sick of the stress overload many of us are suffering, I bravely, if naively, declared that 2023 would see me “…Saying NO to counting minutes. NO to stressing over the mind-numbing roster of repetitive daily chores. NO to replaying ad nauseum the cock-ups of life or the rude slights of others (who are doubtless stressed themselves). And YES to life. YES to time without a stopwatch, time as process—to be enjoyed, relaxed with, contented in. To bask in the great good fortune of being ALIVE.”

Well, you can’t fault me for being a pessimist.

Okay, confession: While I no longer hyperventilate over a lost ten minutes or resist having to unload the dishwasher for the 1,978,244^th time, I’m still having some—okay, more than some—issues regarding life’s stressful cock-ups. I want to solve problems as soon as they arise. As for the rude slights of others, like a needle stuck in the groove of an LP, my brain replays their angry words—what inspired them?  

Case in point: A few weeks back, at the end of a lovely day of holiday shopping, Ed and I waited in line to check out our basket of purchases. When our turn came at the register, the saleswoman was hostile from the moment I laid the first item on the counter, even telling me to be silent as I was talking to Ed. Afterward, at lunch, I was still feeling the sting of her sharp words and combative manner. Ed encouraged me to put it out of my mind, to not let it warp the happiness of the day, which had extended to the meal we were now enjoying—a sunny table in a relaxed atmosphere, pleasant exchanges with our server and the bartender. I knew he was right. F*** it, I thought. Let it go. And thus, this post was born.

So, going forward into the new year, whenever the insanities and inanities of life sling their arrows of “outrageous fortune” my way, I’m not going to waste time and energy on things gone awry or people behaving badly. I am turning off the “replay ad nauseum” switch in my head and dismissing all annoyances, great and small, with these two little words: F*** it.

Not even an exclamation mark to punctuate. Just a calm, determined choice.

The Waiting Game

I actually had an opportunity to apply my new resolution immediately after that post-shop lunch. Six days before, I had emailed twelves invites to our annual Winter Solstice Party—a high-spirited gathering where the brandy and eggnog flow freely, the table is heaped with savories and sweets, and the conversation is lively until the last guests depart 4-5 hours later.    

So, what was I angst-ing about? I had only heard from three people. How was I to shop for a party when I had no idea how many people might show? I sent “hope you can make it” reminder emails and texts a week before the party. I tried contacting several old friends through Facebook in the event their email addy had changed. Then, Ed and I had our holiday shopping outing. Afterward, I decided I would just send my customary cheery date and time reminder to everyone on the list a day before and F*** it, we’d celebrate with whoever showed up.   

Two days before I emailed the reminder, I got three more yesses, one no, and a maybe, pending recovery from a recent surgery. In the end, most everyone showed up and it was one of our best parties ever. I could have saved my head and heart the numerous replays of “what if” and “why aren’t they?” The outcome would have been exactly the same.

As is the case for the following:

Stuff That Doesn’t Work the Way It’s Supposed To

Ed and I take several trips a year—travel is our passion. Until this past September, though, we’d never experienced a cock-up in getting from one place to another. Long lines at security, yes. Annoying passengers in front of us who launch their seats so far back, we can’t use our meal trays—yes. But that’s part and parcel of life on the road (or in the air). Well, this fall when we flew to Copenhagen, there were no direct flights, so we booked a Boston to Munich/Munich to Copenhagen flight going over, and a Copenhagen to Frankfurt/Frankfurt to Boston flight coming back. All on an airline whose name rhymes with Woof-bonza.  

After the customary knee-breaking backward-thrust-of-seat by a decidedly unfriendly man in the row ahead, we queued up our movies, ordered a drink and away we flew. Our flight had departed 30 minutes late, but we still had almost an hour to make our connection. No sweat. In Munich, however, we had to sit on the ground for another 30 minutes, waiting for a gate to open. By the time we made it inside the airport, we had a scant twenty minutes.to make our flight. I ran daily for more than 25 years and never were those leg muscles put to better service than my sprint to the next gate where the attendant waved us on, calling out encouragement as if we were in some World Cup race. We made it, but… our luggage did not. We arrived in Copenhagen with nothing more than our passports and a package of cookies we got on the plane. Apparently, this happens so often with Woof-bonza that they had cartons of packets containing a toothbrush, toothpaste, and deodorant. We each took one and caught the metro to our Airbnb in the clothes we had now been wearing some 30 some hours—and would don the next morning until an airport van delivered our luggage around noon. But world travelers are not easily daunted. We greeted our suitcases with unbridled joy, changed clothes and had a marvelous month in Copenhagen. Then…

Our return flight from Copenhagen to Frankfurt was a full hour late in taking off. Leaving us just 15 minutes to make the Boston flight. Well, you can guess the story. Arriving late in Frankfurt, we again had to wait for a gate. It turned out to be Gate A. The Boston flight left from—and I am not making this up—Gate ZZ80. Not even Jesse Owens, greatest Olympic runner of all time, could have made that transfer, but I gave it my all. On and on I ran, only to find they were packing up the gate and turning off the lights at ZZ80. This time, it was our luggage that made it onto the plane, while we stood in a near-deserted airport, stranded.

Woof-bonza’s claims office booked a flight to Boston for the next morning, gave us a meal voucher for one of the airport eateries, and a train ticket to a hotel thirty miles away. Once again, we would have to wait another 24 hours to lay our hands on clean clothes. Having been victims of luggage-separation once, though, we’d smartly included clean underwear, deodorant, and toothbrushes in our carry-on bag.

I should have said F*** it, gone down to the hotel bar and enjoyed a drink, but instead I bogged down in my exhaustion, greatly annoyed at having to go through the whole flight thing again the next day and losing the money for the room we’d booked in Boston that night.     

Best Laid Plans…    

Our small in-town front yard is a terraced garden, roughly 30 feet long and 15 feet from sidewalk to house. It took me two years to dig through the bindweed left by the previous owners and another two years to terrace the beds and plant them. The task of refining—getting the right mix of colors, heights, greenery—never really ends, but by 2022 I was satisfied with the whole. Hoping to deter the joyous children and manic doggies who romp through and trample the lower garden abutting the sidewalk, I invested in some attractive, heavy-duty garden edging. It arrived just days before our house was to be re-roofed in preparation for solar panels.

The morning the roofers arrived, I came down to breakfast in time to see one of the crew trundling a wheelbarrow through the upper tier of my garden. The entire tier. A third of my garden, flattened. In apoplectic shock, I could only point to Ed and make distress noises. All I can say is it was a good thing I hadn’t yet noticed the roofers’ trucks, parked well over the curb, their tires settled in the garden’s lowest level. All my purple sage, my bee balm—gone.  

When I was capable of rational thought again, I told myself: I’ll wait until the roof project is done and then I’ll set up the edging. Next spring, I can replace the plants.  But the roof project finished just ten days before Ed and I were scheduled to leave for France for a month. By that time, I had a zillion trip-prep tasks. I’ll install the edging when we return in October. Upon our return, however, Ed came down with a cellular infection that landed him in the hospital for a week and kept him off his feet for over a month. The upshot? Hospital visits, taking on all the household tasks and autumn leaf-raking brought me right into early December and the first snows—no garden edging. Next spring, I told myself. Next spring, definitely. The box containing the edging—a sizable mother, 27” x 17” x 17”—sat through the winter, just off the laundry room, at the entrance to the kitchen.

The next spring, I received an unexpected (but very welcome!) one-off bonus from my annuity account, so we decided to use the windfall to re-side the house, something we’d wanted to do since we purchased the place. You can probably guess the rest—a crew of construction workers with sawhorses, scaffolding and ladders everywhere. What plants had escaped devastation during the re-roofing took a hit this time around. And my hopes of installing the edging…

As I write, that mammoth box of edging still stands near the entrance to the kitchen. It’s become a sort of table, a home to a variety of flotsam and jetsam, including a hefty carton of cookbooks we winnowed out some years ago to donate—where???

Someday. Sometime. But for now, heading into winter, I just gotta say F*** it.       

Annoying Circumstances   

My town has just four days—alternate Saturdays—in October and November when you can take your leaves to the landfill. We usually rake about 30 bags each year, but this year, we filled 52 bags. So, getting leaves to the landfill at every opportunity was a priority. We ran multiple trips on each of the appointed days.

On Saturday, November 11, I stuffed eight bags of leaves into every possible nook and cranny of my Subaru and drove off on what was supposed to be the first of two dump-runs. The day was beautiful, sunny, with sweeping vistas of hillsides dotted with the last color of the season. It was all going splendidly until…I arrived at the dump to find the gate closed and locked. A sign advised me to go to a second gate down the road—the one where large brush can be dumped. So off I drove only to find that gate also closed. The ride home was not so sunny. I unloaded the bags. Twenty-two bags on the porch. And more to rake in the coming week. I managed to clear a narrow pathway for the mail carrier.

When I told Ed the news, he said, “Oh, it’s Veterans Day.” “But don’t government ops like the Post Office always observe those holidays on Monday?” I asked. Turns out that when it comes to Veterans Day, they don’t. MLK Day, yes. Presidents’ Day, yes, but not Veterans Day. Doing a quick calendar check online, I found that Veterans Day had only fallen once on a Saturday in the fourteen years we’ve lived here, and I hadn’t noticed because pre-pandemic, the town offered two days every week for leaf disposal.  

Petty, ridiculously so in hindsight, as is so much of what we stew over, and definitely deserving of a F*** it.

Anticipation: Why Worry Later When You Can Worry Now?

Just before we left for Copenhagen this past fall, I received a summons for jury duty for October 31. Happy Halloween! I decided not to ask to postpone because I didn’t want to risk getting rescheduled for a time when we were traveling—you can’t ask for a postponement twice on the same summons—and face forfeiting all the $$$ we’d laid out for plane fare and lodging.

The problem with jury duty is that you have no idea how big a chunk of your life it could lay claim to. You could show up to find they don’t need you and you’re excused. You could serve one, two, three days and be done. Or you could land a trial that lasts for weeks. Not only might my life be thrown into chaos for a lengthy time, but right at the start of the holiday season when family would be gathering. Anticipation, as Carly Simon might have sung, was making me…crazy. Every day after we returned from Copenhagen was a mental back and forth: What’ll I do if…Don’t worry about it until it happens…What’ll I do if… 

On the day-before phone check-in, I was supremely relieved to hear: There are no cases scheduled for tomorrow. Your presence is not required. I should have just said F*** it from the start and let the dice fall as they would. As noted up-top about the holiday party invites, it wouldn’t have changed the outcome, but it would have saved wasted energy for something happier and more productive in the meantime. And that’s true for all things beyond our control.

Into the New Year—Bring It On!

As I write, family has started arriving for the holidays. This time is super-precious as both my kids live some distance away and we’re seldom able to get together more than two or three times a year. I’m sitting here now, thinking I really should give this post one more good edit. Cut it back here. Spark it up there. Revise that one section.

But with just three days to go until Christmas, I’m going to listen to myself. Take my own advice. Sail into 2024 with a lighter heart. This post is good enough, finished. F*** it.

Lugging the stand mixer downstairs from the guestroom where it hibernates from the end of one holiday season to the start of the next, I always think of my cat, Tibby. Each year, when the stand mixer took its place of prominence on the kitchen counter, Tibby would go apoplectic, dancing in circles on the floor beneath it, meowing, salivating, waiting for that first stick of butter to appear. For him, the holidays were about an endless stream of butter wrappers as I baked pies and vast quantities of cookies to be tinned and sent to friends. The butter, softened in preparation for all this holiday hoopla, always left a thin creamy film he would lick and lick in ecstasy until the waxed surface of the wrapper itself had vanished. Tibby is no longer with us. He died in July 2021 after a long and happy life, but this memory always makes me smile.

It’s good—healing, rejuvenating—to reflect on that which we love and have loved. The people and things that sustain us. That give our life purpose and joy. We live in difficult times. High on the stress count. Low on the tranquility scale. Amidst the mayhem and brutality, the pressures of a society—a world—crumbling in on itself, we need to step back periodically and remember what is beautiful, what is worth saving, worth fighting for, so that we may renew our energy to do so.

The holidays—whatever one celebrates—seem like the right moment for a rejuvenation of spirit. Yes, they’re a mindbending whirlwind of coordinating menus and finding extra chairs at the table for Uncle Dave and your stepdaughter’s new heartthrob, of picking up relatives from the airport or train station and trying to remember what size sweater your brother-in-law wears while navigating the Black Friday crowds at the mall or online. But if we can find some quiet moment, carve out some small space for reflection on that which we love, I think it will lighten our hearts. Send us into the New Year restored.

When my kids were little, I’d stay up late on Christmas eve to play Santa, bringing down the presents from their attic hiding place and arranging them under the tree. Then I’d take a post-midnight stroll around our block, the streets so still, so calm, everyone tucked up in their beds, the stars high above. Peace on earth. My little corner of it anyway. Back home, I lit the tree and turned off all the other lights. And sat. And soaked in the serenity, the goodness of being alive. Even writing about it now feels healing. Hopeful. And we need to be hopeful, we who want to save the world from its own worse tendencies.

So, as we wind down one year and await the next, I’m making a list of all the things that sustain me, that give me joy, enrich my mind, nurture my heart and soul. “Those lovely intangibles,” as Fred tells the cynical Doris in the holiday classic Miracle On 34^th Street. If this idea appeals to you, I hope you’ll reply to this post and share something from your own list of spirit boosters.

The List:

Music. I don’t know about you, but for me, music is like the soundtrack of my life. Slip in a CD or put on a vinyl disc and music transports me over the years to cherished moments. A song brings back the faces of long-ago beloved friends, dancing and drinking and gabbing the night away in our favorite café bar. A tune recalls the heady freedom of a cross-country drive as I made my way east to a new home in the land of my dreams. A dance tape I made for the occasion brings back the joyous August day I married the love of my life.

Music is also therapy. Every evening, as midnight rolls around, I take a half hour to “decompress.” My favorite songs for this include Joshua Bell’s incredibly beautiful recordings of Dvorak’s Song to the Moon and Schubert’s Ave Maria, which I first heard sung acapella by a man with a breathtaking tenor in the streets of Florence, Italy, twenty years ago.

From the Beatles to the Byrds, from Motown to Mozart, while driving or cooking or relaxing on the lawn at Tanglewood—where I can enjoy Josh Bell live—in music, I feel the strength, the continuity, the joy of my life. And the determination to fight on for my vision of a more loving, generous, peaceful world. 

Books. My greatest joy when I was three years old was the little Golden Book (19 cents!) I would get each week at the grocery store—if I was good, my mom cautioned. I was always good. I couldn’t wait to get home and open that book and discover the story. After my mom had read it to me several times, I had it memorized. By age four, I could read them myself. In college—surprise!—I majored in literature. Shakespeare, Flaubert, Faulkner, George Eliot, Fitzgerald, Hemingway, Gabriel García Márquez. And so many, many more. Reading, reflecting, discussing and writing about what I’d read. That was my “work.”  

And what did books offer me—then and in all the years since?  A multiplicity of mirrors from which to view this complex world. New ways of seeing and thinking about things and people. The ability to dig deep and make connections. And above all, the sheer pleasure of reading itself. My to-be-read pile far, far exceeds not only the limited shelf space of my house, but all reasonable life-expectancy figures. Unless I make it to 140. Hey, I’m up for the game. Bring it on.      

Theatre. When Covid struck, I feared it would be the end of live theatre. I was so relieved to discover that, indeed, the show must go on. Shakespeare at The Globe. Arthur Miller’s The Crucible at the National Theatre. Tennessee Williams’ Cat on a Hot Tin Roof in the West End. Toss in a great musical—Get Up, Stand Up! The Bob Marley Story—and like the line from the song “Take Me Out to the Ballpark,” I don’t care if I never get back.

If you haven’t done much theatre—and a sizable portion of America is a long Uber ride from a professional theatre—you may well ask: What can you get from a play that you can’t get from a film and at a fraction of the price? I would say, in great theatre there is a synergy between actors and audience that leaves you electrified. You come out of a show changed and charged by the emotions, the ideas you’ve witnessed in community with others.

Theatre was the naturally evolving bridge between the ancient storytellers who brought crowds of people together, hungry to hear tales of the human experience, and the later writing down of such tales—the Iliad and the Odyssey, credited to the Greek poet Homer, being two famous examples. But it remains a potent force in storytelling for the same reason the phonograph and the radio did not replace concerts: a live performance cannot be duplicated. The dynamics between a particular audience and the players belong to that moment. Ed and I don’t buy a lot of “stuff” (books being one exception!), but when we go to London, we go to the theatre.

The Natural World. In the great scrapbook of memories, one I often find myself returning to is a sleep-out on the shores of Lake Michigan when I was at Girl Scout camp. A warm summer’s night, the gentle slap of waves upon the sand, one of the counselors singing as she strummed her guitar—a song about becoming a woman—while we drifted off to dreamland, a zillion stars overhead.

Nothing is probably as soothing a balm to the soul as losing oneself in nature. The trees arching high above you. The vast blue dome of the sky. A world of green and calm, rivers and lakes. Nature dwarfs our human dramas, gives us respite from our struggles. I love big cities—New York, London, Paris. Love their energy, their art galleries, museums, theatres and cafes, but even there, I always seek out their green spaces. Central Park stretching from 59^th Street to 110^th.  The Jardin des Plantes in Paris. Regents Park and Kew Gardens in London. I relish them all, these urban oases. Closer to home, the Quabbin Reservoir in western Massachusetts is a revitalizing 39 square miles of nature preserve with 181 miles of shoreline.

If you haven’t let yourself get lost in the immensity of the natural world lately, I can recommend no better antidote for life’s stressors. Cleansing, rejuvenating, free to all. 

The Faces of Those We Love. Whoever said love is the greatest healer spoke a timeless truth that many physicians today acknowledge. Recall the moments you’ve waited in an airport or train station, searching the faces of the arrivals for the one you love. Suddenly they’re there and your heart leaps with happiness. Everything’s good. In times of trouble, it’s those faces we turn to for comfort. In times of joy, we look to those same faces to share the elation. Nothing can ever match the beauty, the comfort of those we love and are loved by.

Over a lifetime, we connect with many people. Some become good friends. A few become very dear friends. And, if we are lucky, we may find one very special person to share our life with. We may also have children to love and nurture. For me, those beacons of light and emotional sustenance are my husband Ed, my two adult children, Ethan and Lauren, and my dear friends of more than four decades, Pete and Maribeth. Also, my grandmother, Edna. Though all I have of her is a hand-tinted photograph from her childhood, she was the first person who taught me I was worth loving. A lifelong gift of immeasurable value.      

Into The New Year

Books and music. Theatre and the arts. The serenity of nature. The people we love. There is so much worth preserving in the world, including the world itself. And we who care about a more humane, more just, greener planet will have to do the saving. But first we must revive our own exhausted spirits. As 2023 winds down and we look toward the New Year, I wish you an oasis of love and calm this holiday season. The sustaining joy of happy memories with your nearest and dearest, and the creation of new moments to treasure. A thing of beauty is a joy forever. And yes, it is good to be alive.

Bless the beasts and the children, for in this world they have no voice, they have no choice. (DeVorzon/Botkin)

I was sitting on my side porch the other day when my neighbor’s cat, Binks, came tearing up the driveway. Usually, Binks ambles over for a visit, a head rub, rolls fetchingly on his back for a belly massage. Not today. Today he was freaked, for right behind him a girl of about nine raced up the drive on her bike, tossing handfuls of pebbles and acorns at poor Binks.

I leapt up instantly. “Stop that right now! It’s not okay to throw things at animals!” The girl, startled by my appearance—my Subaru had obscured me from her view—stammered, “Okay,” and fled across the street, back to the safety of her friend, a boy about seven. For several minutes they threw the stone/seed mixture at nothing. I settled back on the porch.

“I saw this really funny kid video,” the boy said to the girl. “A kid shoots his mom in the back with a really strong nerve gun—you know, the kind that gets you good. And she’s on a ladder painting, so when the gun hits her, she falls backward off the ladder and the paint goes all over her.” The kids laughed and then pedaled off down the street. I continued my surveillance until I was sure they were gone. What remained was my disturbance. A really funny kid video?

You Are What You Eat: Growing Up On A Steady Diet of Violence

A second troubling incident occurred during my daily ramble—a walk that takes me through the ordinarily peaceful streets bordering on the local college campus. On the front porch of one house, a woman was sitting with her two boys, ages about six and eight. I’d seen the kids many times, playing in the yard. That day, however, the boys were busily engaged in opening two large packages that had just arrived. The older one let out a whoop and held up the contents—two AR-15s, toys I think, at least I hope they weren’t real, but with Marjorie Taylor-Greene pushing guns for kids, one can’t be certain. I mean, there are gun manufacturers out there aggressively marketing real firearms for children. Just google “real guns for kids” and you’ll get an eyeful. Top Five Handguns for Kids; How to Choose Your Child’s First Gun; Feels like Mom and Dad’s Gun: U.S. Firm Makes Real Rifles for Children.

The older boy immediately struck a pose with his AR-15, chillingly familiar from news videos of violence around the globe—Iraq, Yemen, Syria, Palestine, Israel, not to mention the endless mass shootings at U.S. schools, shopping malls, and public events like the Harvest Festival in Las Vegas where more than a thousand bullets were fired, killing 60 people and wounding another 400. That last event occurred in 2017, and people began to talk about a time coming when mass shootings would be a daily occurrence in America. Well, we’ve crossed that threshold and left it in the dust. By September 3rd of this year, the U.S. had already clocked 484 mass shootings for 2023.

And kids see it all. Even if a parent monitors TV consumption of violence at home, it’s everywhere. As Common Sense Media warns: Thanks to live-streaming apps… kids can watch actual scenes of real-life violence in their social media and news feeds. They can also interact with it, and they do… commenting, sharing, and using other digital tools to process the raw footage. In one particularly harrowing instance in 2016, a young French woman talked about her sadness and suicidal thoughts. Viewers are said to have encouraged her to do the deed—which she then did by throwing herself under a train. In that same year, an Ohio couple was arrested. The man, age 29, was charged with raping the underage friend of his 18-year-old girlfriend—with his girlfriend’s consent, making her an accomplice as she was the one livestreaming the rape on Periscope. In court, it was revealed that the girlfriend had gotten carried away, giggling in her excitement over the number of “likes” she was getting as she filmed the crime.

Children’s constant exposure to horrific real-life violence and tragedy is not just a problem for those adults currently raising kids. It’s a problem for everyone. It’s our problem. At a time when many states are hollering about the need to crush “woke” agendas in schools that focus on teaching children respect for others and fostering communal empathy, it seems to me we have never been in greater need of peace, love, and understanding.

Dumbing Down the Content and Ratcheting Up the Fascism

What we are getting instead is book bans and radical-right educational agendas, like the videos from unaccredited PragerU that tell children slavery was a good thing for Black people, or at least it wasn’t that bad—better than being killed; that climate change is a bunch of hokum; and (my favorite) that Jesus—who, as Vanity Fair’s Caleb Ecarma points out, predated Adam Smith by more than a millennium—was a free market capitalist.

See an agenda here? Co-founded by conservative talk-radio host, Dennis Prager, and financed by fracking billionaires Dan and Farris Wilks (as well as the Betsy DeVos family and others of that ilk), PragerU has no ties to any accredited educational institution. Its CEO, Marissa Streit claims accreditation “these days is synonymous with controlled [by ‘political elites’].” Much of PragerU’s “curriculum” consists of short videos for grades 6-12 on political and social issues: “Social Justice Isn’t Justice.” “Make Men Masculine Again.” “Income Inequality is Good.” “The Inconvenient Truth About the Democratic Party.”

If you think such materials are B.S., but they’re not teaching our kids it’s okay to throw stones at cats, I encourage you to think again. With a “curriculum” that devalues Black people, indigenous people, gay and trans folks, women, and the poor, what chance do animals have?

As of this writing, Florida has approved PragerU curricula for use in schools across the state. Oklahoma’s State Superintendent of Schools has okayed PragerU videos as “supplemental curriculum,” and New Hampshire’s Board of Education recently voted to adopt one PragerU course on “financial literacy” for its secondary schools. Digging around the Net, I was heartened to discover that these approvals have been met with pushback from many districts in the three states. But history teaches us that what is “optional” or “supplemental” today may well become mandated tomorrow. That any of our children are being exposed to this far-right anti-science, anti-democratic propaganda should concern all of us. PragerU and its “curriculum” are much more than the absence of education; they are indoctrination with a bullet. An agenda that panders to the Christian nationalists and is financed by the uber rich.  

Thought Control: The War on Books

According to Pen America, there have been more than 6,000 book bans in the U.S. in the past two years. Two of the biggest targets—surprise, not—are books that feature characters of color or deal with issues of race, and books with LGBTQ+ characters. Perhaps most important to note is that virtually all of the 2,532 book bans in public school libraries in the past year jettisoned the “proper review process by a committee of educators and librarians.”

It’s easy to dismiss these bans as the megalomaniacal crusade of a few fanatics and extremist cranks, largely limited to far-right states like Florida and Texas. But the numbers keep rising, as do the list of states afflicted. Missouri, Utah, South Carolina, Pennsylvania, Michigan, North Dakota, Virginia, California—all have seen a significant jump in book bans this year. Even bluer-than-blue Massachusetts is not exempt. According to ACLU Massachusetts, the state saw 45 attempts to restrict access to books last year.

And what are these “offensive” titles, these books so “threatening” to our youth that they demand removal from school library shelves? Among the banned are Pulitzer Prize-winner, Maus, the story of author Art Spiegelman’s father’s experiences in the Holocaust (which the Wall Street Journal, hardly a bastion of “woke”, called the most affecting and successful narrative ever done about the Holocaust). Verboten, too, is Newberry Honor winner The Watsons Go to Birmingham—1963, Christopher Paul’s tale of a Black family who journey from Michigan to Alabama to visit Grandma and run smack into the Civil Rights Movement where one of the family narrowly escapes death in the Birmingham Church Bombing. Prominent among the book’s themes are kindness and compassion. Well, we certainly don’t want those “liberal elite” values being taught to our kids.

But it seems we do. A 2022 American Library Association poll found that more than 70% of parents are opposed to book bans. That’s a sizeable majority. So just who are these book-banning fanatics intent on taking away our children’s freedom to read? According to Suzanne Nossel, CEO of PEN America, the current onslaught of book bans “represents a coordinated campaign…being waged by sophisticated, ideological and well-resourced advocacy organizations.” PEN has identified at least 50 groups who aggressively advocate for banning books in our public schools. Prominent among them is Moms for Liberty, a right-wing group who started in Florida in 2021 and has since sprouted 278 chapters across forty-five states. Last time I counted, that is most of America. How has a group that in no way represents what most Americans want or believe spread so rapidly and far? I’ll give you a hint: The reason begins with m and ends with y.

No Time for Learning: The End of Literature?

The war on public schools being waged by the far right and the onslaught of book bans—as heinous as they are—are not the only threats to our children’s education and development. For the past twenty years, the pressure of high-stakes testing, beginning in elementary school, has forced many educators to “teach to the test.” Whether it was called the No Child Left Behind Act (2002) or its revamp, the Every Child Succeeds Act (2015), in practical terms the intense focus on standardized testing in our public schools (with the results often tied to federal funding and teachers’ salaries) has led to a time crunch in the classroom. Teachers across the nation complain they must sacrifice reading entire works of literature to focus on those “bits and pieces of books” that will get the kids through the tests. They fear that reading, once a cherished pleasure, has become a loathsome chore. Readicide, as English educator, Kelly Gallagher, calls it.

How is a student to “analyze how and why individuals, events, or ideas develop and interact over the course of a text”—an essential skill every citizen needs to understand and evaluate our world, and a key standard in English Language Arts—if all they receive are disconnected passages from A Tale of Two Cities or The Grapes of Wrath or Romeo and Juliet (removed in numerous Florida school libraries—“too sexy”)?  

The Kids Are Not Alright

Education should prepare our children for the world they are inheriting—it’s history, its present, its future. Today’s kids are facing incredible challenges on multiple fronts—environmental disasters; real threats to drinkable water, breathable air, and the global availability of food; the trend toward fascism around the world with its rising tensions and the resultant hostilities that threaten nuclear war. We desperately need thinking human beings. And right now, many of our kids are crashing and burning.   

The National Institutes of Health’s (NIH) 2022 National Healthcare Quality and Disparities Report warns us that: Nearly 20% of children and young people ages 3-17 in the United States have a mental, emotional, developmental, or behavioral disorder, and suicidal behaviors among high school students increased more than 40% in the decade before 2019. Mental health challenges were the leading cause of death and disability in this age group.

The report also cites a study conducted by the Health Resources and Services Administration (HRSA) that shows the number of children ages 3-17 years diagnosed with depression grew by 27% between 2016 and 2020.

Little kids, depressed? Rapidly increasing numbers of middle- and high-school students, anxious to end it all? We should be outraged at these findings. More important, we should be doing something to stop this assault on our kids, our country, our world.  

Who’s Fighting Back

The war against education, against freedom of thought, against democracy itself is not going unchallenged. In June, Governor Pritzker (D) of Illinois signed a bill into law that will withhold state funding from any public library that removes materials because of “partisan or doctrinal” complaints. “Young people shouldn’t be kept from learning about the realities of our world,” Pritzger said. “I want them to become critical thinkers.”

California’s Governor Newsom (D), Attorney General Banta and State Superintendent Thurmond teamed up to write a joint letter warning the state’s educators against pulling books from library shelves. Doing so, they said, may qualify as “unlawful discrimination,” and expose the perpetrators to an examination by the state’s Attorney General’s office. Several cases have already come to the state’s attention—one involving rejection of a social studies curriculum that includes gay rights—and are being aggressively pursued.  

Nine states—New Jersey, Illinois, Delaware, Massachusetts, New York, Maryland, New Mexico, Washington, Rhode Island—and the U.S, Virgin Islands have signed a letter to textbook publishers expressing their dismay that some publishers are reportedly “yielding to…government representatives calling for the censorship of school educational materials.” The states are demanding that publishers “hold the line for our democracy.”

The National Campaign for Justice reports that Senator Brian Schatz (D-Hawaii) and Representative Jamie Raskin (D-Maryland) have introduced a bill to stop book bans and defend the freedom to read. Fifty-two co-sponsors from the House and twenty senators have already taken up the fight.

If Not Now, When? If Not Us, Who?

When I was studying for my M.Ed. in 2000, Alfie Kohn, renowned lecturer and author on education (The Schools Our Children Deserve and What Does It Mean To Be Well Educated? among other titles), spoke at the University of Massachusetts. He was addressing the distress many teachers, parents, and kids were feeling about the state’s new MCAS tests to be administered in grades 4, 8, and 10—the final test to determine whether one graduated. Teachers were up in arms—they saw the writing on the wall: Teach to the test!—and many fourth grade teachers resigned in protest. Parents worried that their children, particularly those with special learning needs, would be traumatized by the pressure and fear of failure. Kohn, with his solid background in social science research and best educational practices, advised the packed auditorium: From wherever you stand—school administrator, educator, parent—you must fight this. Be the link in the chain of resistance that will not break.

And here we are, two decades along, but finally a ballot initiative has been filed with the Massachusetts attorney general that would end the MCAS as a requirement for graduation. President of the Massachusetts Teachers Association, Max Page, explains his union’s strong support for the initiative: “All the focused test prep…all the time wasted preparing for this test, has not had the impact …‘ed reformers’ want. It’s time now to change it.”

All the time wasted… Yes, twenty years is a long time. But if we never start fighting to reclaim our kids’ future, our democracy, we will never win. Child labor laws have been scuttled or relaxed in Arkansas, Iowa, New Jersey and New Hampshire. More than a dozen other states are attempting to do the same. Many Republican candidates speak openly of abolishing the Department of Education if they are elected, calling it “a prime example of Washington’s meddling in American lives.” The agenda couldn’t be clearer: a Christian nationalist education for the well-to-do and forced labor for the rest of our kids. (Recall the PragerU video, “Income Inequality is Good.”)

Yes, eternal vigilance is the price of liberty. In this moment, vigilance means voting this November 7. It’s true, there’s no “big” names on the ballots in 2023. But there are state board of education members and—depending on where you live—governors, attorneys-general, secretaries of state. There are statewide and local ballot measures. In many communities, there are elections for local schoolboard members. Please don’t sit home because it’s an “off year” election. When we don’t decide our future, someone else will always step in and decide it for us. In these times, there are a lot of dangerous people, backed by big $$$ donors, all too willing to do that.  

The Washington Post is famous for its slogan Democracy Dies in Darkness, an allusion to the silencing of the press. But I would argue that the first threats to democracy are always made in plain sight for all to see. We are there. We must act now. Fight back. Protest. Vote.   

“As long as you can laugh at yourself, you will never cease to be amused.”  (Anonymous)

[Note: Some days it can feel like there’s not a whole lot to laugh at out there. But fortunately, we all arrive on planet Earth with surefire comic material–ourselves. So I’m leaving you with a lighthearted post to get you through the psychotic times in which we live. Never mind that you’ve seen it before. It will do you good to see it again. Besides, I’m off to Copenhagen for a bit of R-and-R where I plan to indulge in lots of Danish pastries and tip a pint or two with the locals at my neighborhood “værtshuse.” I’m sure I’ll amuse the Danes no end, starting with my attempts to ask for a beer in Danish. Hold the fort while I’m away and I’ll see you with an all-new post in November.]

Some months ago, a friend shared a story at a party. The NGO she works for is part of a global project involving a half dozen other NGOs. Right in the middle of a networking weekend, no one could get access to the project’s shared online folder. People from Amsterdam to San Francisco were frantically e-mailing each other: Where’s our data?! When the dust settled, it transpired that one of the participants had moved on to another job and wiped the old files from his computer to gain usable space. Unfortunately, he was listed with Google as the administrator on the folder. When he erased his copy, he unwittingly erased all the members’ copies.

Everyone at the party had a good laugh over this little tale of digital mayhem. Probably because: 1) we could all imagine ourselves doing something equally stupid, and 2) we were relieved we hadn’t been the one to do so in this instance.

Since then, I’ve often found myself chuckling over this incident and wondering if its innocent perpetrator saw its humorous side—after all, no one was hurt and though it was a nuisance, the remaining NGO members were able to reconstruct the folder from their individual notes. I hope he can laugh as we at the party laughed, but I’m doubtful. We tend to suffer the embarrassment of our mistakes for a long time. Sometimes to the grave.

There’s a lot of pressure to perform to perfection out there. Mistakes are anathema—heads will roll, et cetera—yet who among us doesn’t make them?

To compound the problem, we are vulnerable to something psychologists call the “Spotlight Effect.” When we think we’ve screwed up—called a prospective employer by the wrong name, tripped over a cord as we made our way to the podium to give a speech, sent the wrong manuscript to an editor—we tend to freak out, imagining that everyone saw, that everyone now thinks we’re awkward, stupid, incapable. This magnification of our own mistakes has two negative effects: 1) To avoid any risk of humiliation or rejection, we become much more guarded in what we say and do; 2) As a consequence, we drain a lot of the joy from our lives.

Tragedy + Time = Comedy

My husband once set his hair on fire while trying out an expensive cigarette lighter in a posh department store. My friend Pete swallowed a piece of ham tied to a string while doing an experiment on peristalsis. I hauled around my three-week-old son at the bottom of a Snugli, like a sack of potatoes, until a woman in the supermarket told me there was a little button-in cloth seat for newborns. Embarrassing? Well, in the case of the peristalsis experiment gone awry, maybe more frightening than humiliating. The point, though, is that these anecdotes, told and retold over the years, have become the source of much hilarity and bonhomie. As comedian and writer Steve Allen said: Tragedy + Time = Comedy. Our most embarrassing missteps become our funniest stories, the ones everyone asks us to repeat.

But what if we just cut to the chase and start laughing at our foibles the moment we spill the lasagna all over our lap, drop our cell phone down a restaurant toilet, forget to attach the CV to our job application? Life should come with a beeper, warning us when we’re about to screw up, but it doesn’t, so we need to adopt the ability to laugh at ourselves.

My dad could be ornery, and he was not much with the compliments, but he could always laugh at himself. It’s probably the most important thing I learned from him. I remember one time in a restaurant, he was fixing his coffee. “Geezus, this cream is thick,” he remarked as it fell in chunks from the little pitcher into his cup. “Oh no,” my mom cried, “that’s my blue cheese dressing. I asked for it on the side.” Now, my dad could have blamed his mistake on the low lighting or the waitress’s failure to set the blue cheese next to my mom’s plate or the stupidity of a restaurant that would put both cream and blue cheese in identical pitchers. But he just laughed. Because it was funny. Because there’s no point in pretending you didn’t do what you did. Because no one is perfect. And then he ordered a fresh cup of coffee.

Mistakes—we all make ‘em. So, laugh it up. And if the people around you can’t cope with this very human reality, maybe you just need different people.